The beautiful letdown.

I had a weekend full of driving last week and I got to that point where I was sick of all my recent music and decided to go to full shuffle in the hopes that my phone would pull something wonderful out of the depths of my music. Shuffle did me a solid and pulled this gem out:

When I was in high school, mostly grade 10/11, I had two cds. The Beautiful Letdown by Switchfoot and Lifehouse by Lifehouse. This was when I was playing basketball and travelling almost every weekend for tournaments. This was also before mp3 players. I used to just sit in that van with my discman alternating between these two cds for hours. 

This brought back big memories of that time. 

I had forgotten about this song completely.

But it also reminded me of a much funnier memory.

There is a line in the song, "There's so much more than empty conversations filled with empty words."

Back in the days of msn, you had your msn name, and then you also had room to put I guess what we would call a status today, only back then people usually just put up angsty song lyrics. At least thats what I did. 

At this time there was this boy that I liked and he was notoriously hot and cold. Sometimes I thought he liked me too, other times I was sure he didn't. I could not read him and it drove me crazy. So me, being the upfront and emotionally balanced youngster that I was, coped by posting slightly passive aggressive song lyrics in my msn status hoping he might think they were directed at him but also retaining the ability to say that they weren't and knowing he wouldn't ask. 

I posted "There's so much more than empty conversations filled with empty words" and sat back in the assurance that he would maybe get the message and that he also would never have the guts to actually ask me about it. 

And then the unthinkable happened. He messaged me and I can't remember what he said exactly but it was basically, "Hey, why'd you post those lyrics? What do they mean?" 

And I said, "I don't know what you're talking about, they are just song lyrics."

And that my friends, was a beautiful letdown.